01 12 / 2011
“Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing.” ― Sylvia Plath
01 12 / 2011
tonight's tarot
Three of Pentacles (R) - Trying to “do it all” leads to workaholism which is just as devastating to love and creativity as any other excess. You sacrifice many things for the sake of one. You begin to stifle others by imposing standards and values to the extent they can not be themselves.
You now have the opportunity to demonstrate and share your work with others - which will satisfy your need for their feedback and approval. You will go much farther with the active support and encouragement of those around you. You have the discipline to work long and hard, but you need to understand the overall plan, otherwise you tend to get hung up in details or caught up in the drudgery of meaningless exertion. Things continue - either getting worse or improving, but at a slow steady pace.
Stand back periodically and take a look at the whole picture. Form a mental picture of the completed project. Always strive to learn more, to gain more experience. Challenge yourself to do more and with time and patience, learning to take it easy and not always trying to rush things - you will succeed. You will learn to focus on your ambition and extend the effort necessary to succeed.
Perhaps the category of work is wrong. Lack of direction or wrong direction. Productivity is blocked or below an acceptable level. The student/apprentice may not be doing as well learning the trade as he might. Supervision may be too harsh or lacking altogether. There may be some sort of subversion of a productive process. Physical inertia, laziness or over enthusiasm or too much work taking place. The amount of work being done exceeds what is proper or necessary for the desired end product - the mark of a workaholic fits here.
Questions to Answer: How do you work with others? What are you working on? What is your goal? What skills are you using? Are you willing to persevere? How are you taking or expressing criticism of the work being done?
plus this
Four of Cups (R) - Results are happening - people are hearing you - allow yourself to “feel” when a new relationship is possible. Awaken to the world and all its possibilities - always expect that there will be a positive change and stop worrying. New opportunities will now be offered - new relationships and new ideas. Trust and believe that your ideas are good and have a little more patience. Believe in yourself and when it “appears” nothing is happening, always prepare your mind for an exciting turn of events. You will experience enthusiasm - seize this opportunity -you will experience the balance of feeling internally satisfied and fulfilled as well as external emotional fulfillment.
See what happens as a built-in opportunity to re-direct your angry energy. Recognize that you can be volatile and dangerous. Choose not to hurt others or tear down your creations in a moment of anger - use this energy to move forward toward your goals.
New - Extremes. Uncentered emotionally. Unappreciative of your blessings, of your present emotional lot in life. Here can be apathy, complacency, moodiness, over-satiation. Too much self-love (vanity) or too little (self-deprecation). Overly submission or overly dominant. Possessiveness. Disrespect. Looking at the wrong things. Emotional possibilities, offerings that you are unaware of, even in the subconscious. Can be in the nature of a “chance of a lifetime” opportunity.
Questions to Answer: How do you feel dissatisfied? Where do you go to find peace and serenity? How is this time of withdrawal and contemplation benefiting you? What are you re- evaluating in your life and relationships? What are you fantasizing about and what can you do to realize your fantasies?
25 2 / 2010
"A human being is part of a whole, called by us the Universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."
12 1 / 2010
haiku for my hood:
bottom of the hill
thee parkside, yankee, farley’s
potrero you rock
12 1 / 2010
Rothko. american art at its best. people talk smack, those people don’t get it. when seen in real life, when given the respect they deserve, his paintings speak volumes. this video can help.

